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Yours Truly
Her name is Sabrina, and she is probably one of the laziest and emotionally closed off people you will ever meet. Don't judge her for it; she's a lot smarter than you can imagine and is fiercely loyal to her true friends. A new graduate who majored in law and hoping to
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"Ambition is a wonderful thing-it can drive you, it can exhaust you, but if you look at it in a positive way it can be very productive."-Steven McRae.
"I like to think that while striving to improve, it is important to acknowledge at every stage along the way, when you have achieved something."-Steven McRae.
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Tuesday, 18 October 2011 @ 4:13 am
"Seein' a cute guy and being too scared to talk to him is like looking at a cake through a glass case and having no pocket money. When's the last time you went up to someone cold turkey? No tweets, no facebook, no eharmony. (I'm obviously not a good example of being ballsy. Sorry)".Says Dia Frampton from the brilliant band 'Meg & Dia'. It's a nice way of putting it if you're someone that generally cannot muster the courage and do something, but what do you do if you're the type of person that is quite straightforward with your feelings? Sure, there's some Facebook chat involved and I'm probably being my usual over analysing self yet I genuinely believe(d) that there was something going on between us-that there was some sort of a spark. Oh how wrong I was. What's worse is that he lied. Not a lie that directly affects me or anything. Just a silly and perhaps trivial lie. Or something he's been afraid to admit for all this time? Peer pressure? Boredom? I want to confront him just so I can laugh off how silly I'm being. Or maybe he's just a flirt that gets on with girls really well. 'Cause you know, he does not swing this way-heard this from the guy himself so it's pretty legitimate, none of my usual made up hallucinations. Maybe it's dodgy karma for being a rubbish girlfriend to people in the past? All I can do it just pick at all these different things. What really gets on my nerves is that the past few guys that have piqued my interest over summer till now have fallen under one of two categories: gay or taken (actually, one guy didn't call into either of these categories but he was a twat and I learnt that a guy who practically ticks every single box could still have an awful personality). Subconsciously I might just choose guys I can never be with so I can just be filled with even more self loathing. I don't know. I spend copious amounts of time literally stalking information about people, reading their blogs and just assuming I know them. When in reality, it becomes evident to me that I don't know them at all. Not one little bit. They might look a little geeky, make intelligent contributions to class, write heartfelt poetry, fall into the non-drinking/smoking category, like opera, be from one of your favourite countries, talk to you whenever you come across each other and be musically talented-but you know what? These little things don't actually mean anything. They really don't. Knowing all these things doesn't help a girl to suss out if the guy is right for her; let alone returning the same feelings. In fact, how does one know if any of those points that I've just stated are true? You (the reader) are just taking in what I'm stating and choosing to believe it if you want to. Why am I feeling all disappointed and hurt over someone who will never have a clue how I feel? Who probably won't even consider for the slightest moment that I can't help noticing them whenever they're around. The sudden self awareness. Do I feel safer this way, this whole one sided pent up frustration? I need to sleep. |