Nothing Left Unsaid
Yours Truly
Her name is Sabrina, and she is probably one of the laziest and emotionally closed off people you will ever meet. Don't judge her for it; she's a lot smarter than you can imagine and is fiercely loyal to her true friends. A new graduate who majored in law and hoping to
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Posso farle.
"Ambition is a wonderful thing-it can drive you, it can exhaust you, but if you look at it in a positive way it can be very productive."-Steven McRae.
"I like to think that while striving to improve, it is important to acknowledge at every stage along the way, when you have achieved something."-Steven McRae.
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Friday, 25 June 2010 @ 12:28 am
I would like to just cry right now.Seeing you like that...and then you saying that....I felt torn. I'm so sorry. It will be last of it tomorrow. You were irked at me today when I brought her up again. Rather harshly you asked me why I was so stuck in the past...and I told you I want to learn from history-but that's not entirely true. It's more about the fact that you'd date someone who's so different to me in personality and looks that baffles me. You also said I'm so worried about the future. Maybe I'm paranoid or I'm mature...I don't know. I'm scared of change. I'm scared of the unknown and unpredictable things. I hate being out of control over my life. I'm so so so insecure. I'm scared of loving someone and being hurt, because you open yourself to vulnerabilities. How am I meant to know who's worth the heartache? 'Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost'.I often act impulsively. I don't completely make up my mind on what I want to do till I'm in the situation and therefore my actions can be seen as rather irrational and strange. I don't regret what I did the other day, because I think I'd regret it even more if I didn't do anything at all. For such a long time I wanted to act on my feelings but I held back since I didn't want to make things awkward for either of us...but now you're leaving...and I'm dating someone (that I can actually picture spending the rest of my life with-which is crazy by my standards). Ever since Ashley I know that I don't want to live with anymore regrets. So tomorrow I may hug you. I may cry. I may not even show up. Who knows? All that is for certain is that I'll blindly follow my heart as I always have. 'Just for arguements sake, lets say it's NOT love. Ok, then the only other word that explains all of this is insanity'.Sounds about right. |